fear creeps up my spine
the sense of being followed
from each dark corner
the water wont stop
despite how i turn the taps
i found it like this
it was past midnight
the sky filled with UFOs
i’d lost my camera
you see yourself there
you don’t know how you got there
and yet there you are
i’m not welcome here
i have nowhere else to go
scratching at the door
keep me at arms length
lest we confuse love with love
there’s no going back
wake in an orchard
sunlight breaks through the branches
grass between my toes
i started typing
and kept going and going
until my hands bled
wake in an orchard
sunlight breaks through the branches
grass between my toes
she climbs the gutter
a huge knife between her teeth
someone has to pay
staring at the door
i dreamt it was your birthday
and that i loved you
my gun misfires
scorch-marks lash across my hands
i hear rabbits laugh
memories rattle
at the bottom of my lungs
i know what i am